I don't want to come back...

I don't want to say about today... Anyway, its not of good memory... On a happier note, I am to Taipei later... 8 days of freedom... I am looking forward to go and not to come back... Coming back on 7th July 2007 nice date... 10.50 pm i think... Its the last sq flight from taipei back here... I don't want to come back...

HiJaCk To Do CaShCoUnT...

I am hijack to do cashcount today as my colleague who was suppose to go is sick and went home to rest... What wasn't good was... I am wearing dress... Cashcount usually we wear pants... Cos we have to cut open the seal, check the box and seal the seal so we have to bend done... N the people who help to count are all guys... I ended up the only oddball in dress... Not so lah... They have a new accounts lady called Irene... She is what you will call a total fashion disaster... The first time, we saw her she was dress in a pink office suit... Oh i think she loves pink... Today, she was also in a pink office suit... Different pattern thou... Vv weird looking woman... Shall not comment much as with her fashion senses she manage to get hitched...

Today, cashcount also not easy to do... It took an hr more then usual... Cos this stupid machine that was counting the coin blank out... Then there were more collection then usual... So many people have been paying the jackpot... Haha... I got to go out... Edit later...

Thinking...

My boss n colleague came back from overseas... They both 不约而同 bought us bracelets... But both also too big... My wrist small... Hahaha... Now i got to alter them... I should be able to alter it myself after i 研究 it...

I got a bit of thinking... I'm scare that i don't know what i want to do after i come back... So i feel like running away n not come back... Thou i think i got a problem surviving at Taiwan being english educated n they write everything in chinese... Its not that my chinese is bad... I can be quite a good translator... Just don't get me to write... I need dictionary being spoiled by the able to use dictionary in exams...

I scare last day i will cry... I don't deny that i can be pretty strong... I don't cry easily... The weird thing is when i cry i don't know why... I am a bit not in tune to how i feel... I think i usually choose to block out what is unhappy to be happier... I am always an emotional disaster on last days... The last time i tried my best to hold, but eventually its a lost game... N not only so i was so blur that i thought i drop my house keys at office when i absent mindedly left it at our downstairs letter box...

I'm back at a square one 1 year plus back... I've been going around the same maze and back at the same point... I don't know what i have been doing... I see everyone moving along but i don't know what i want...

23th JuNe 2007... Walking n Eating...

At 4 pm, I and Xinyi went to walk central... The layout of the place really not vv good... I can hardly remember where which shop is... If you have liked something from one shop and decided to go back to get it after you have walk around... I guess its gonna be a hard find or you just have to walk all over again... So mah fan... Luckily, we were there for window shopping only... When i or she see something we like... The other will go wait we going Taipei next week... Now cannot shop... Hehe... Ended up Xinyi say later we come back don't have liao leh... So i say its just not meant to be then...

After being disappointed by how fast we manage to see the place, we went to starbucks for coffee... Cos my leg pain... I've been walking around for 3 hrs cos before i met her i got to return some vcds that my mum borrowed at thomson plaza... Then my stupid brother don't know what he did with his room door and got stuck in his room so i got to rush back and rescue him... Haha...

After our starbucks trip, we walk to OG but upon reaching chinatown Xinyi came up with this idea of going to tour agency to look at their brochures... In the end, when we reach Novena, it was 6.30pm... Thinking after our walking here and there we would be late but otherwise... We even found time to go see Novena square 2 hahaha... We also don't like the way shops are placed there...

Dinner


The food...


After Dinner...

Change environment or urself?

My friend's nick has it that write: If u have a choice will you change environment or urself? My answer is definitely change environment... Cos i don't see anything wrong with myself... Why must i change myself to fit environment?... Everyone is an unique entity... I don't like to play fake... I hate people who are so 假... Be urself is important as it affects ur whole personal being... N even if there something wrong with me, i will still change the environment... Make until myself not happy as if the environment will be happier... That's crazy thinking... I will look older... I might die of heart attack cos it will feel so tired... So 委曲求全 for what... That is not right... U only have so long a life span in the world... So its no point being unhappy... If i waste so much of the time being unhappy then why live?...

I've been talking about quiting since forever... The thing is not only my colleagues say want to quit... Some of my uni friends also habour the thoughts of quiting... I throw letter already then i got to know one of my uni friend Rain also did the same... Few are still indecisive and in their jobs...

To Rain and me:
Lets Jiayou in finding new jobs...

To others still in their job:
I wish the best for ur...

After the rain sure have rainbow...

Recongise this pic? I took it on the 4 days gold coast easter break trip...

I went to my client's place today it sells orchids... See some pics...


Some haven plant Orchids...

Front...


Back...





Baby... Mummy, i caught u taking my photo... Opps...

Biniki and some stuff i digress into hahaha...

Discussion tonight happens to be how to put sponge into the bikini top... I bought my bikini and i got the gal that sold it to help me put it in save me all the trouble of having to figure it out later how to insert... Luckily, i put a little attention into how she taught me to fit it in... Actually, i was thinking never mind lah its not like i gonna take it out... Too troublesome, just handwash and hang it dry together lor... At the most it take a few more days to dry only hahaha... N its not like i gonna wear it often to really need it to dry fast...

Upon hearing that my bikini got sponge n 2 days of indecisiveness XY went to get sponge for hers too... She bought her bikini in australia n we learn something weird they don't have the hole for you to insert the sponge... She actually cut the inside to fit the sponge in... Shocking... She bought her sponge but never bring her bikini along to buy n she also never ask the person how to fit... She vv can leh... In the end is cannot... I taught her how to fit hers in the right way like mine...

Sometimes i think our gals things are complicated... Like insert the sponge... Got this tiny dot thing to see to go where... So Mah Fan... Then cos she say cut then i tell her must sew up the cut the part of cloth so that the threads won't fray or drop out... I did not mean to sew up the sponge into the bikini and cannot remove... Just the side... I kept explaining and i ask if she understands... Makes me come to this that i think sometimes the more i explain in detail the person get more confuse of what i am saying... Like 越描越黑...

Remembered the time, we both went to get our gown n met the next day to take photos... Then we suddenly realised that we both don't know how to piece everything together... It was so funny... I thought she know then she thought i know... Cos the previous day, when we went to get the gown we were all in a fluster... We only realise that the shop functions on 5 days week 2 hrs before it close... I was at home (upp thomson) while XY is at bugis... N where is the shop @ somewhere Tanjong Pagar we don't know... It doesn't help that we were only back in sg for a month plus... So that's why my attention wasn't strong... Its totally off...

Usually i am the details keeper... Like how to piece things together, what to bring for class and what date/ time to meet... I remember the time... But i got to confess i am always ms late... I'm always my friends free secretary... Even school over liao my friend forgot to bring her present for my other friend also complain that i never give her reminders... First place she never tell me to remind her mah... Next time i will remind...

I BoUgHt a BiKiNi...

After 2 weekend searches, i finally found a bikini that i like... I am quite particular, i like got skirts one... So its a bit hard to find... Actually, i liked this one when i saw it at OG last weekend but they do not have a new piece and the other piece got some prints on it... So i never buy... N luckily, i never buy it from OG cos today when i bought it at Takashimaya it cost me $20 less then OG... I found it after searching through Robinson and Metro... Then to final stop till home... Now the pic of the biniki...





Haha no pics of me in it...

Stupid idiot car...

I just met with this stupid car... Downstairs, there is this junction and there is this stop line... I saw the first car gonna turn in the other direction i was crossing so i cross.... This 2nd stupid idiot car never stop at the stop sign when it reach... See me halfway through crossing still went ahead and move... Still dare to horn at me and don't intend to stop when he knows that if he go ahead he's gonna hit me... But he did press brake in the end... After he turn still turn back and look at me... This kind of idiot... Don't know is it blind or not?... Blind then don't drive lah... Cannot see i am crossing the road... I am not that invisble... So rush don't know for what... House on fire???... Or rushing to 抓奸在床...

I am packing some of my stuff for holiday... I just realise that i only know how to pack for long trips... How long? Like 9 months and 5 months... I am lost at how to pack for 1 week... All the luggages either seems too big or small...

I bought a new lipstick... I also found a lip balm from my friend... Its Satsuma flavour from body shop... I was thinking since i am gonna try my new lipstick i gonna try the lip balm too... Cos its not open yet... It taste so orangy... I don't like orange... I wonder how long its gonna take me to use it up... Actually, i don't intend to use it unless necessary... Just bring incase... If not i gonna end up like a poor thing who went on holiday and says his lips are cracking due to the weather... Wonder if the poor thing's lip balm worked... I hope it does...

There is a bandwidth limit per hour when using geocities as the web for hosting songs... I exceeded my band width and then there was no sound on my blog... It had me wondering if there was something wrong with my script... As i kept editing it and may have accidentally deleted something away... I tried to revised my script a few times... But nothing works... Until i open geocities then i realise that i have exceed bandwidth... Ai yo... So there wasn't anything anything wrong with my script... Waste time trying to revise it... Blur me...

Changed Blogskin

I manage to change my blogskin n i manage to add song to my blog... Hehehe... Thanks to XY for giving me the script for adding song... Yes... After 2 tries... I found a forever friends skin... I actually like the swing one below... But i found the box too small... Maybe i will go find one with a bigger box later... So i am stuck with this for a while... Don't expect it to change too soon... Cos my awhile can take vv long... So if u don't like the skin then sorry u got to bear with it... I don't know what i did i actually can't find my comments button... So i decided to put up a cbox...

Travel Insurance

Travel insurance... Today, we went to get travel insurance... The woman was so slow... Talk so much rubbish... Singaporean are impatient... I am just one of them hahaha... Actually, it was a simple affair... Go there get n go... But bad mistake, we told her to explain a bit and it got her started... She talk n talk n couldn't stop... She was also explaining things that we weren't interested in knowing... XY told her to go next page and she can't get the hint... She showed us the computer screen so we can see/ read the details... But we finished reading before she is half through her explainations... U can't blame us for the our fast reading speed after that much education we went through and how slow she was...

I am just not made to wear flat shoes...

With no other alternatives... I turn back to wear a pair of shoes with a bit of heels today... Why? I got blisters so any covered cute cute shoes will kill me... Then i found out that i can actually walk better with the a bit heels shoes... I think i am just not made to wear covered and flat cute cute shoes...

One bad thing thou the leg got a bit pain and cos got a bit heels the pressure will be on the toes n my toes are having vv deep blue blacks at the moment which hurts... But on the other hand, my speed of walking improve a bit haha... Making it less then 15 mins to get home... Just got to 忍 a bit of pain... Never mind i can rest the whole night sitting or lying around like my baby...

Think i got to practise my 忍功 so that i can walk around on my holiday trip if it doesn't get well... I hope that the stupid blue black will go away... Blue black Blue Black please go away...

Right foot says: Blue black can you please go away?
Blue black says: Sorry, i am here to stay...
Right foot says: What will make u go away?
Blue black says: U slowly wish and hope that helps hahaha...
Right foot says: So bad... Don't worry i will find a way to get rid of you... See who will get the last laugh...

About reflections, i haven start reflecting...

I d|sLikE mYsElF...

Today, i took 10 mins just to walk to the bus stop... I think i rather say crawl to the bus stop... Usually i would take half the time... When i reach my stop, i took another 10 mins to crawl to my office... Then when i came back home, i took 15 mins just to walk back... I am so unhappy with myself... Seeing everyone walk pass me, i am so 气 with myself... I am walking really small steps... Like japanese gals in kimonos... Walk until i want to cry liao... I hate this...

I remembered an article that says singaporean walk vv fast... I totally agree... I used to walk fast too... That's what my friends usually say... Now i am like a 乌龟... Makes me remember the show 微笑Pasta... Where the main lead always call the gal 本乌龟... Guess i am one now... Forgot to mention, i also wore a new pair of shoes so my legs got blisters...Dumb right... I also know now...

Maybe fate is telling me that i should slow down... Learn to look around... Maybe its saying i have overlook or miss somethings in my life and should reflect...

Valco posting: 10/6/2007

Its been long since i Valco did a posting... So happy... Mummy's gonna sit home for a week to accompany me... Cos she can't walk vv well... I can stick to her... I love sticking to her... I think she doesn't like it too much... Saying what her pervious Marco doesn't stick like me... I want to scream... Stop thinking of that stupid Marco now what u have is me and i am Valco not Marco... Luckily in many ways, i seems to have different characteristic from that Marco... The only bad thing is they seems to say i have more bad habits then him... So now u apprecitate the lost... When i am gone, you will appreciate me...

I learn that my mummy is a somewhat do the opposite person... Opposition party... She usually can be quite homely and sit @ home... But i don't know what happen when she is stuck at home and can't walk... She wants to go out... Finally after, in the house for 5 days, she went to dinner with grandma last nite... Come back complaining leg pain... She is one person who don't know how to write the die word... Today, she's gonna go out again... Leaving me at home... I heard her over the phone telling grandpa that she is going out and grandpa say don't go later people step on ur leg... VV stubborn mummy say never mind lah a while only... She will come back complaining again... Stupid her...

I don't think that i am a gal without courage... I did the stupid 告白 thingy 2 times.. All failed... They were all almost 10 years ago thingy thou... I got a about 1/2 time recent years but i'm not sure if my clues were that strong enough... Any gal that did that twice n fail is shy ok... Never hear before once bitten twice shy... Now is super shy liao... Haha... Cos already twice bitten... I usually have this problem, the one that i like i can't seems to get his attention... Maybe i am too childlike... Like everybody's little sister...

Even my clients thinks that i am really young... The youngest guess so far is i'm 19... 2 years back, i have a friend who guess i'm only 16... Everyone thinks that my bro who is 5 yrs my junior is my elder brother... Even by voice, his friends ask him you have younger sister at home?... I'm not complaining that i look younger... Actually, i'm fine with it... Gals mah no need to look so old... If everyone guess that i am older then my age then can cry liao... Like i have this colleague that is only 21 this year but our client guess that she is in her 30s...

Pics of my baby... He sticks like glue like gal like that... I don't like... People say gals stick... But i think personal space is important...

Stuck @ home...

I've been stuck at home for 2 days... I never step out of my house for 2 days... Gonna turn into a hermit liao... I must be dreaming thinking that as my mobility improve i should be better... But my dad says otherwise... He says that the part that isn't suppose to be swollen which is the front is swelling... Maybe its because i am using the toes and heel to walk only is my answer to why the front is swelling... But he says that won't constitute to the swell... But there isn't any pain... So its no good news...

I was suppose to call my client to inform her that i can't go today cos i can't walk vv well but we have arrange for her accountant to meet me today last week... I forgot yesterday and called early this morning... She wasn't in so i told her colleague... This woman huh really never eat medicine in the morning... She will be all so fierce then afternoon she will be vv nice... Weird weird one... I guess woman of that age 50 plus is like that... Haha... I tell her i can't walk liao n her only concern is her accounts... I can't go out how to go and do her accounts... Its not like i can do anything about my leg... Like i like to sit at home resting the leg... I also don't like to sit @ home nursing the stupid leg... I also want to walk, run and jump about like i usually do... Now all cannot...

XY today ask me if i get a lot of friends request or people who i don't know wanting to be friends... She says it must be my face that are attracting the guys to talk to her... Cos she put up this pic see below... Then they don't know which is her and assumes i am her... I am so proving her wrong that it can't be me... So i am putting that pic up and have our little experiment... I think it can't be me cos i don't even seems to attract people i want... I always end up in a mess liking people who don't like me... I am purely dumb at this game...

I dOn'T liKe ThIs Mc...

Today, the bao is sort of gone but my leg blue black... My mobility is as bad as yesterday... I learn that i am such a right sided person... I don't really know how to walk with the left going first... If u happen to read that i said that i twisted the left leg in yesterday's entry... Opps... Now u know that i can't differentiate the right and left vv well... Haha... Maybe i wasn't wearing my watch or ring when i did the post yesterday... I usually rely on them to differentiate right n left...

Went to get an X ray... When i was at the register... I have no idea what illness i had when the person asked... I only had experience at saying cough, flu and fever that kind... So i told him the leg is swollen, can i get an x ray... Then he sort of say got to see doc then can take x ray... So mah fan got to wait... Eventually, the doctor says its hairline crack or fracture... Takes 2 - 3 weeks to get well... He gave me 5 days MC... So many... But I don't like this MC... Totally hate it...

Now i feel that my house is too big being a 5 room flat... My room also too big... Its the biggest in the house but its not the master bedroom... I need magic to get the leg well... I dislike not being able to walk properly... Climb stairs also mah fan... I live on the 18th floor but our lift only stops at the 17th floor... People who know me knows that i never walk stair properly... I always jump up the stairs... Now cannot liao... I am so lucky to have all the entertainment i need in my room thou... Having picnic on my bed... Later before i notice i will have ants for new friends haha....

Stupid stupid clumsy me...

I am so not happy with myself now... First time in my life of 24 years and a bit... I cannot walk properly... I was reaching the IT fair when i accidentally lost my balance... I never fell just a bit twist my right leg... Then i think it got fractured... The part between the toes and ankle balloon into a big bao... Lucky, i got my dad to come pick me up...

I couldn't decide whether i want to see doctor or chinese doctor... But we ended up at chinese doctor... He rub my leg until i want to faint... He says it take about a month to recover fully... But it should take a week to get the bao to disappear... So long... I wonder when can i walk nicely... I am not gonna look nice for my trip if the leg doesn't gets well... I am so not happy...

hAvInG tOo MucH of SweEt desSerts...

I don't know if my boss receive the letter n i don't dare to ask... Anyway, its my dad's b-dae... The cake is what i like to eat... Hahaha... Cos i don't know what flavour he likes n he say anything so i got what i like...


Mummy n Daddy


Their product which is me n daddy

I been having a lot of sweet stuff that i think my left cheek inside is slightly swollen maybe heaty... But i don't care and i am still having a big piece of the chocolate cake now... Yesterday afternoon, i had chocolate sundae...

At night, someone decided to be nice and we went to have hokkaido ice cream at central... It melts really fast... After that, we headed to Mt faber... The top on the floor got arrows and places but don't seems to be able to see that its right... I am not good at geography... But i can read maps just the gals style have to turn the book opposite... After that, we went to eat bean curb at selegie and he complain not as nice as sembawang... Ended up home at 1 am... Lucky, today don't have training cos my boss is sick so got postponed... I think i am having jap @ revenue house for dinner...