Thinking...

My boss n colleague came back from overseas... They both 不约而同 bought us bracelets... But both also too big... My wrist small... Hahaha... Now i got to alter them... I should be able to alter it myself after i 研究 it...

I got a bit of thinking... I'm scare that i don't know what i want to do after i come back... So i feel like running away n not come back... Thou i think i got a problem surviving at Taiwan being english educated n they write everything in chinese... Its not that my chinese is bad... I can be quite a good translator... Just don't get me to write... I need dictionary being spoiled by the able to use dictionary in exams...

I scare last day i will cry... I don't deny that i can be pretty strong... I don't cry easily... The weird thing is when i cry i don't know why... I am a bit not in tune to how i feel... I think i usually choose to block out what is unhappy to be happier... I am always an emotional disaster on last days... The last time i tried my best to hold, but eventually its a lost game... N not only so i was so blur that i thought i drop my house keys at office when i absent mindedly left it at our downstairs letter box...

I'm back at a square one 1 year plus back... I've been going around the same maze and back at the same point... I don't know what i have been doing... I see everyone moving along but i don't know what i want...